I've been emotionally retarded as of late. Sorry, retarded is rude. Unstable. Crazy. Idiotic?
The problem is I don't know why. So I keep doing and saying awkward things because I can't control myself. I seem to be caught up in intense waves of varying emotions. It's kind of been a struggle to keep solid.
So I'm finding distractions. People, work, liquid, entertainment, projects. Not enough writing though. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it sets off the crazy.
An example of the unpredictability: worked for 6 hours then decided I was bored of it so I went home. I got home and all was calm, then a sudden urge of really happy energy made me want to go see a movie. All alone. A date night with my city, if you will. Then, because it took me 30 minutes to decide on the movie I wanted to see (which is the movie I wanted to see from the start, if I was to be honest with myself) I got frustrated. I started feeling angry and introverted and trapped. So i went for a walk, ending up near the theatre. Went in and could have watch the movie I wanted earlier but decided I needed something I have no preconceptions about if I was going to enjoy it. I didn't want to ruin the movie I wanted to see with my mood swings. I ended up watching 'The Time Traveller's Wife', cried at a movie for the first time in forever, and went home content. Now I am just baffled at myself.
I'm just being so irrational and illogical with things. Although, to be fair, 'The Time Traveller's Wife' was actually a really good idea and choice. I won't ruin it for anyone, but it's definitely not sci-fi at all. It's more about the effects of the sci-fi stuff on really people. Which is something that I always find really interesting. It's strange but I find aliens and monsters much less interesting than the lengths people go to overcome them and how they cope. It's probably why I like Shaun of the Dead so much.
completely random off topic sidenote: I'm currently talking to someone who is condemning Bret Hart for cheating on his wife while on the road. This is amusing to me as this paricular person has never been in a relationship where they didn't cheat on thier significant other. Even now, I beleive there is cheating afoot. Ah, humans, we are such hypocritical creatures.Labels: bad news bears, emotionally retarded, flawed |
