You could be waiting for a day that won't come
| Tuesday, May 30, 2006 |
| Je n'ai pas bon |
J'ai visite mon grandmaman aujourd'hui. Ce n'est pas correct: j'ai visite elle ce soir. Aujourd'hui ete pour mon oncle. J'ai retourne chez ma taunt apres le service. Elle est tres fatigue. Trois jours de ca c'est beaucoup pour une personne.
C'est la fin de ma francais. Et oui, je connais qu'il n'y a pas de accents. Ce n'est pas une gros problem pour moi parce que les personnes qui lire ca ne parler et lire rien de francais.
martini becs |
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| Sunday, May 28, 2006 |
| Sugar Will Make It All Better, If Only Temporarily |
My daddy bought me ice cream. Chocolate-chip-cookie-dough. Because he knows I'm sad. He's trying to make me feel better, the only way he knows how. It was very sweet of him.
It won't work, but at least he tried.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 9:45 PM |
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| Friday, May 26, 2006 |
| They All Disappear Before My Eyes |
Today at 4:00PM my uncle died.
I don't know how to feel. On the one hand, I've been completely desensitized to death because I've experienced so much of it in my short 20 years of life. On the other, he wasn't a distant uncle; I saw him almost every day. I knew him well.
I'm just numb right now.
And when it rains, it pours. Just after I found out he passed away I learned that my grandmaman was just admitted in to a Quebec hospital. She's very elderly (93yrs), I knew this already. But the fact that she had lost 20 pounds after I saw her 2 weeks ago frightens me. She had lost a lot of weight already and now it's worse. I'm afraid I won't get to say goodbye to her, like I didn't get to say goodbye to my uncle.
It just occured to me how much death and sickness I have encountered in my life. Some people have never even been to a funeral before, or been to a hospital (other than a check up). I'm thankful I've already been through so much and can handle what many people couldn't even fathom, but some things bother me. For instance, I know I won't cry at the wake or funeral. I don't even know if I can cry for someone anymore. It's been a while since a had a true cry. I feel like I'm being cold when I don't show sorrow, but I am sad, I do hurt.
I just wonder why I can't feel it.
martini kisses
i guess i need to correct myself here because I cried when I thought Zachary had died. Maybe I cried for him because it was so sudden, such shock of past. Maybe I don't feel for people because I'm watching them go. Or because I'm not alone. There was no one there when I cried for Zach, so how does any one really know I cried. Maybe I won't cry because I'm surrounded by people. Maybe I'm scared to.
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| Wednesday, May 24, 2006 |
| Oh... My... God... |
A remake of The Omen is out 06/06/06. Je suis tres excite! Julia Stiles and Liev Schreiber are in it. Mmmm, Liev Schreiber... this will be very good. I'm usually against remakes because a lot of them turn out shitty, but after seeing The producers I'm wlling to give this one a shot.
That is all.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 5:53 PM |
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| Tuesday, May 23, 2006 |
| But I Don't Feel Any Smarter |
I have at least one wisdom tooth coming in. Which, if you haven't guessed, is quite painful. I literally got no sleep last night due to the amount of pain and numbness in my right jaw. This is not good for many reasons besides the pain. Of of such reasons is that fact that I have a midnightshift tonight, meaning I'm going to be in pain and dead tired. Joy, what a night his will be.
I did, however, go to the dentist today. My dentist is very nice but he talks to me like I'm 5. He always has, and I've accepted this aspect of him. He gave me a lovely prescription for the pain which I can't get until my dear female parental figure comes home. She wants to see how much I've been written up for and other non-specific/important thing having to do with keeping pain away from me.
Aside from that, I've realised that I have watch entirely too many movies last week, up to monday. My new goal for next week is too exceed this number, though I may wait until next weekend to start. We have a movie gallery down the street and any movie that's not a new release is free on the weekends... for 7 days! It's a beautiful system. Because of it I was able to watch Garden State for free. Although, I did pay for Crash and The Producers, and they were totally worth it.
Up tonight... well, I'll save that for when I'm bored out of my skull and thee's no one on teh interwebs to keep me awake.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 2:26 PM |
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| Sunday, May 21, 2006 |
| Last Hour Of My 12 Hour Work Marathon |
Only one hour left. I can't wait to go home. I have the day off tomorrow, which will be fantastic. I shall spend it with my dear Candi. I wuv her so. I'm watching the last scenes of Amelie right now. So cute, in the romantic-type way. I love this movie so much. Aw, they are just so darn happy.
Oh god, the last hour is the worst. It's gonna be sooooo sloooooow.
Alright, this is the last post for today... unless somehing happens between now and the time I fall asleep that is worth talking about. These posts suck, and I do heartily apologize for that, I was just very bored today, and trying to think of things to post just entertained me. Well, not so much entertained me as kept me busy. Ish.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 9:31 PM |
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| Hour 8 Of My 12 Hour Work Marathon |
Priscilla was fantastic. And now, by professional opinion, I'm going to watch Amelie. There's my french content for ya.
I am unbelievable bored. Seriously. But hey, only 4 hours left. That's like... 2 movies! Yay!
I put some pamphlets about factory farming and KFC cruelty in the pamphlet rack here at work today. They really aren't supposed to be there but I don't care, hopefully they'll reach someone. Plus, it's not like I'm forcing them to think that way, I'm just informing them, giving them a choice. They still choose to consume food from factory farms or kfc with the knowledge, so be it, I'm not going to stop them. People are free to do whatever they want.
Ok, breakfast boxes then movie time!
martini kisses
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| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 6:44 PM |
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| Hour 4 Of My 12 Hour Work Marathon |
I have decided that The Man Who Cried is a fabulous movie. So well acted, and terrific (opera) music. And now, The Adventures Of Priscilla, The Queen Of The Desert will entertain me for a while... seeing as I had only one check in today, and they already arrived at 12:30. Man, this day is boring. At least i have a bundle of movies to help me through it!
There will be a lot of posts today.
Martini Kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 2:39 PM |
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| I DIDN'T FAIL!!! |
HOLY CRAP, I'M SO GLAD I RE-CHECKED MY MARKS! I CAN STAY IN THE HONOURS PROGRAM! IN FACT, I AM SO EXCITED I CAN ONLY WRITE WITH CAPS LOCK RIGHT NOW. MY LEZ DISPENSER WOULD BE SO PROUD OF ME! THE EXAM DID ACTUALLY PAY OFF! I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT A FAILING MARK IN THE FIRST PLACE. IT'S ODD, BUT I DON'T CARE BECUASE I PASSED ALL MY COURSES! YAY!
OK, I HAVE TO STOP YELLING AND GET BACK TO WORK. TODAY IS THE 12 HOUR SHIFT DAY.
MARTINI KISSES |
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| Saturday, May 20, 2006 |
| Fan-Fucking-Tastic |
Thanks for not meeting me.
Thanks for not informing me of changed plans.
Thanks for calling me a day too late.
Dicks.
Martini Kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 11:01 PM |
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| It's A Big Chilly In Here |
Im at work, so naturally I'm on the internet.
I'm also watching The Big Chill. It's making me miss my friends. Not the ditchers. I am not pleased with them at all. I want to be inToronto right now. That'd be nice.
I think I have to get my wisdom teeth removed. My jaw is in some intense pain. The advils aren't doing their job. I wish I could be sleeping this off.
Wow, I forgot how good this movie is.
I guess I'll write in here again when I get more bored than I already am.
martini kisses
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| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 6:45 PM |
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| Wednesday, May 17, 2006 |
| 100 Posts! Already?! |
It's true, this is post number 100. I was planning on doing something really funny, or possibly just having some sort of rant.
I'm not going to do that.
Honestly, I don't have anything special to say. Nothing intresting. So I'm just going to type.
Three people today have offered me some sort of revelation. One freaky religious, one border religious and normality, and one... one unaware revelation. I have denied them all. Why? Because not a single one can be used in my life. Catholicism doesn't hold all my answers, way too strick. I haven't found what I'm looking for, nothing to keep balanced. And well, you shouldn't offer advice when you don't know all of the situation.
I just thought it was funny.
Wow, this is the shittiest 100th post ever.
It's because I'm tired. I'm sure that's the reason. On the plus side, work is almost over. Negative side? I'll only get limited sleep before I have to leave for Toronto. I wanted to see my friend, but I know I won't have time so I don't want to get her hopes up. Plus, I don't want to see her until I mek her her bunny hug (shhh, don't tell!) Actually, I'm planning on making a lot of shirts. I wanted to have some done before I went to Toronto but I don't have time. At least I got some stencils made! Nine to be exact. That is how boring work is. I made stencils.
Okay, my shift will be done in a half hour, I need to get somethings ready. TTFN - Ta Ta For Now.
Martini Kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 5:39 AM |
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| Tuesday, May 16, 2006 |
| It's Official: I'm A Fucking Moron |
I just got my marks back. Lets just say they put me far from happy. I think I'm going to crawl into a ball in the corner and die. All the work I did to get good marks proved useless.
And now my eyes hurt. Time to give up.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 5:14 PM |
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| Monday, May 15, 2006 |
| Have I Ever Mentioned How Much I Love Cyanide And Happiness? |
Here are 2 good reasons why:
#1
#2 I Love Noodles
And you should love them too.
Martini Kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 3:24 AM |
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| Sunday, May 14, 2006 |
| They Lost, But Look: I've Got Something New! |
What? More pictures! You must be crazy! No, just bored.
My beloved Sens lost tonight 3-2 in OT. I sigh for them. I also sigh for the fact that because they didn't make it to the next round my dream-hockey-man Chara will be traded. It was bad enough when I found out the sexy goalie Theadore had been traded from a Canadian team, I just don't know how I'll take the loss of my Chara.
In other news, I am pleased to annouce that I am now the owner of a very fine piece of RvB merchandise. I thank Nick very much for the Blue Army bunny hug. It's pretty big, but I like sweaters better when they are big. And before any of the non-nerds get a chance to comment: no, caboose -1 does not refer to my non ass.
Oh yeah, here are some other pictures for kicks. I went to visit a friend of mine when I went to Toronto. The pictures below were made of a chinese version of play-doh and were constructed on top of a ouiji board. The faux-doh was part of a wonderful/extravagant gift that my friend got me for Christmas. Yeah, it's been a long time since we last saw eachother.
I hope you enjoyed that!
Martini Kisses |
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| Thursday, May 11, 2006 |
| NAKED PICTURES?! |
| You know you have no life when you spend your nights working for little to no money and your days watching 6teen for the humour, Degrassi for the nostalgia, and MTV Live for Daryn Jones.
And now, by request naked pictures! Now, it was never specified what the picture were to be of, othere than naked, so I searched my home and found some truly racey things for your viewing pleasure!
 A record... without the cover!  A ceiling... with out any panels on!  Yoda in a dirty position, not naked, but sexy.  A foot with out a shoe on! (can I show that?!?!?!)  A pillow with its cover a-strewn. So there. Are you turned on? You should be!
On a different note, I'm dead tired. I started work at 2:30pm, and didnt finish until 12am AND I have to be up at 4am to work again. Bah! Usually I wouldn't care but the fact that I literally didn't stop work for almost 10 hours makes me feel like a zombie. A very angry zombie.
Martini Kisses |
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| Tuesday, May 09, 2006 |
| What? You're Changing Again!? |
So I'm attempting to make my blog better. It obviously won't be, but I am trying. The next step, making it easier to read but still cool. Well, what I think looks cool.
Martini Kisses
edit: I'm a fucking moron.... I completed everything then exited out... stupid, stupid, stupid!
DONE AND DONE! Haha blogger, I fucking beat you my friend! I WIN AT LIFE!
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| Sunday, May 07, 2006 |
| Are You Happy Now? |
So here I am updating my blog because someone, who's name I won't reveal, was complaining about the lack of blogging by me. Let's call this person Ms. Laxton, for arguments sake. So this Ms. Laxton and I have known each other for almost a year and already I see the signs that she might be in love with me. The way she looks at me, brushes my hair out of my eyes, throws me on the ground in an attempt to make sweet love to me; you know, the usual. I was supposed to "meet" with this "Ms. Laxton" on "Friday", but alas, it was not so. So, I shall consider this a public apology and a public guarentee to see her sometime in the coming weeks.
martini kisses |
| posted by Fucking Bingo @ 6:32 PM |
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| Monday, May 01, 2006 |
| Murder Most Foul |
Watch the news. There will be not one but two murders in the near future. One will be my friend's brother who lied to me about someone's death which resulted in me crying for almost 48 hours straight. The second will be my own brother who lied to my boss. I was to be at work at 6:30AM. I didn't know this. My brother told my boss at 8:30AM that I was not home. I didn't know this. I did not wake up until 10AM and therefore did not arrive at work until 10:30AM. I knew this.
On the subject of death: I recently found out a girl I went to high school with, who I looked up to and considered a friend eventhough she was 4 years older than me, died recently. She literally dropped dead while eating dinner. The doctors first said it was a brain aneurism, and now have concluded it was a heart condition that she just ignored. This frightens me. She was young (24), full of life, ambition, started working as a make-up artists for TV and film, she had so much going for her. And now she's gone.
Time to get away from the sad sidenote, I'm still full of anger. I'm going to kill my brother. The dick head is just too damn lazy to walk 5 steps to tell me my boss is there. Then he lied to me tonight. I hope he reads this. He should know that his brutal death shall be by my hand.
Martini Fists
how would you like a mouth full of that?!
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